Dear U Taang,
Right now it’s exactly 2.30 a.m. And I cannot sleep. Why?
Thinking of you…
I’m thinking…Oh Lord! Please make a way for us! You see, you said that it would be a great testimony to us if we can wait for two years. But I don’t want to; though I have no doubt that God can move in that way, I’m hoping for something more because…I don’t want to be apart from you for that long! Really, I don’t know God’s will but I’ve heard this said by many people and I also believe this statement…
God allows you to have choices within the restrictions of his will.
What I do know is that I think about you every moment of everyday. If I don’t see you in one day I’m upset because I miss you and I want to at least see you even if I don’t get to talk with you. So how could I survive two years? I can’t.
I want to know you so much more! I want to be at that level where you are my best friend and I can share anything with you and in turn, you come to me and share your heart with me.
So if God allows us to choose, and if you and I are praying, along with our friends and family, then couldn’t He be willing to make a way for us?
Honestly, sometimes I think I’m crazy, that I should cut if off, only maintain friendship, and endure until I leave to go home. But…I can’t! No matter how crazy my mind tells me I am, my heart is completely for you! I miss you, I need you, I want to be with you.
So what will happen? I don’t know. I’ve said to you before that my weakness is that I concentrate too much on the future. Its so true- so then…
God holds all of my ‘tomorrow.’ I pray that all of them would be filled with your presence!
With all my Heart...
P.S. Please don’t settle for what you know is able.
Dream the imposswible, draw pray for true miracles, hold onto faith and we will see God’s answer.
P.SS. Also, I want you to know that I have never written this kind of leter to anyone before. I never open my heart this much- I don’t like the ‘risk.’ But you, you are a ‘risk’ worth taking!
Your ever Lia Zomi